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Today I’m 29

Mar

24

Well…This is not where I imagined myself to be today. Quarantined with 10k+ in revenue gone in a matter of days. That’s 25% what I circulated last year gone in two weeks.

On the bright side, I believe this pandemic is over its worst here in Washington. We are beginning to recover and life is starting to get back to normal. Today, I am 29.

We will recover from this. The studio will come back stronger.

Today, I am 29 years old. This last decade has been so defining. The last 10 years brought me here. And that’s okay. It’s real and it’s raw.

We have doubled down on the legal side of the company. By 2021 we will be air tight protected. No more “trust” over here.

I feel like I’ve lost my last drop of childhood innocence through this. I mourned that. I’m still mourning it. I openly admitted several times in the last couple weeks that I am not okay. Clynn has been the perfect support. He’s very proud of me and so understanding. I’m eternally grateful for that.

I wish more people understood. How much I was willing to give. How much I already gave. I realized through this how little people see and care what I do or have done. In all honesty…probably 8 people will read this post and 6 of them will be my family. After five years of giving.

It’s partially my fault. There’s so much make believe in our minds.

It’s freeing.

To know I can actually do whatever I want. I don’t have to hold myself hostage to my inbox. I don’t have to wrack my mind constantly of what I can do next. It’s okay to rest. It’s okay to invest where I want.

Through this pandemic, I’ve realized NO ONE was asking of me what I was giving. It was border line abusive what I’ve been doing to myself and my family with this company.

My family gets a paycheck now. Happy Birthday to me.

There is a lot to be grateful for.

We will still probably buy land in December. I will still probably run away to Europe for a week this year. We will still probably sit by my favorite pool at my favorite sushi restaurant in Central America soon.

I am sad and disappointed in humanity. But who isn’t at one point or another? I am happy to be distancing myself further from the masses.

You can find me here. For now. Typing WAY too much personal info than any professional brand should. I’m no one’s slave. That’s pretty cool.

Sincerely, Jaclynn

Today I’m 29

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